I had a vision while singing worship songs in church this morning. I imagined that I was seeing a version of myself that was down and in despair. I was viewing that version as if someone was looking at me or in other words, I was seeing in a third person view.
The version I saw was sitting down watching nothing but what was in front of him and just viewing a small world. In his perspective he could only see a little part of the world and he was focused only on the sewer. He could only see the bits of garbage and trash that were lying on the street. Obviously, with such a small, limited, view-able area that was focused on nothingness, his mindset was deeply negative. He could not find the good in the world nor could he be refocused.
I then further imagined that I was walking around him trying to lift up his eyes and get him out of that dark hole. It was like he had blinded himself from the many different perspectives that were around him. He just wanted to stay focused on a small window that he felt that he could manage in his own power.
I kept trying to bring him out of that pit by telling him to seek out the face of Jesus. "Oh broken soul, rise up and seek out His face! Only there will you find the freedom from despair and only there you will find the joy that you seek."
"Through intimacy with Jesus, you will find happiness and your mindset will be changed into a positive outlook. Seek out the face of Jesus and you will be lifted from this gutter that you have purposely closed yourself down onto and you will be able to see the goodness that is around you. Seek out the face of God your Father and do not just seek his hand. For in His face is peace, mercy and grace. He has saved your soul and you only need to turn towards Him and accept his perfect gift of sacrifice."
"Jesus died for you! Do not waste his precious gift by closing yourself off. Do not hide behind any weaknesses of your introverted personality. Do not narrow your vision and focus on everything bad that comes your way."
"Oh broken soul, lift up your eyes and seek out His face for your mindset will be changed, your life will be blessed, and your heart will be filled with love from on high. Open your eyes, expand your vision, and look around you. God's love surrounds you and you only need to look to find Him. He will come in many ways and you merely need to seek out His face to recognize the many forms that He will use to visit you. He loves you so and he wants to see you walk in victory. So, I say to you, oh broken soul, rise up and restore your intimacy with Him. Seek out His face and truly live!"
I felt that in this vision, I had two forms that had different desires. My flesh man, the one born into sin, the one from Adam, was the one that had chosen to sit and do nothing but grumble and complain about life. He had chosen to close off. However, my spirit man, the one saved by the precious sacrifice of Jesus Christ, the one born again from sin and death, knew the way to victory and is able to walk around in power that is bestowed upon him by the manifestation of the Holy Spirit.
Unfortunately, this battle between spirit and flesh will continue as long as we live in these earthen bodies. Feed your flesh and your flesh will rise strong. But, feed your spirit with the goodness that is in the Holy Trinity, and your spirit will rise to power. I myself want to have a strong spirit man that is rooted in the power, wisdom, and strength that is God the Father.
